Rails to a River

An accident at an isolated railroad crossing leaves Tee Jessup in a coma. He awakens to find that everything he cherished in life has been taken from him and a Catholic priest at his bedside with written instructions left by his parents. Tee resists, but without a home or a job, he is forced to abandon the ranching life he loves and to travel paths he never imagined to recover some of what he has lost. When he fails repeatedly in his new urban world, wife Sarah takes their son and leaves. Tee thinks she has left because of his failures until he discovers the more sinister reason.

Rails to a River

One

1971

Tee Jessup weaves his way down one of the concrete canyons of downtown Dallas, his cheap double knit summer sport coat suspended with a middle finger over his right shoulder. His breath comes hard and fast as he tries to put distance between himself and work. He stops at an abandoned shoeshine stand wedged between the back doors of a dying shoe repair shop and a hamburger joint, both scheduled for demolition as relics of a bygone era. The tiny buildings appear as refuse tossed out the windows of the multi-story steel, brick, glass and stone fortresses that tower over them.

Tee expects to find shade and a brief respite from human contact between the buildings. He puts his hated Florsheim wingtips on the footrests, throws his coat over an arm rest, leans back in the seat, and loosens his tie. Only fools wear coats and ties in stifling heat and humidity. The hands of the Fidelity Union Tower clock show a minute past ten, and the LTV Tower thermometer red line is already over ninety. If the forecast is right, it will pass a hundred by noon on the way to one-ten. The bar across the street looks like a cool oasis but will not open till three. Even if it were open, Tee knew he could not find solace there. He had tried.

His heartbeats slow as he takes a series of deep breaths. Being outside is better, but he still feels trapped by the tall buildings and streets where the sun is seldom seen but always felt. When his breathing becomes normal, he walks to a nearby telephone booth, deposits three quarters, and waits for the old man’s voice to come over the wires. They talk until the quarters run out. It still surprises him that a lapsed Protestant has turned to a Catholic Priest for counseling, mentoring, and friendship. But Father Robert Messenger is the only one who understands, the only one who knows the whole story.

The priest knows what brought Tee from the arid and clean air of the High Plains to the humid and stifling air of downtown Dallas; from a place of unlimited vistas to a place where he only sees steel and concrete; from the euphoria a man feels horseback to the suffocation he feels trapped in an elevator or cubicle.

But not even Father Bob can explain why Tee was spared, why it seems as if he has been plucked by some malevolent force from a life he understood and loved and set down into this suit-and-tie existence, into what one of his college professors called the corporate culture. The old priest could not explain why two events, sixty-seven days apart, five hundred miles apart, shattered Tee’s hopes, rudely maneuvered his life down a road he does not wish to travel, toward a place he does not want to be.

And Father Bob cannot explain the dreams, the ones that begin with deafening clashes of metal against metal, ear-piercing screams, and swirling liquids that mix with blood in colors so bright they make his eyes hurt. He cannot explain the voice that sounds like wind might sound if it had a human voice, the voice that beckons Tee to the place where it happened.

When the dream takes him there, he feels like an interloper on ground that has given him birth and nourished his life for almost two decades, but the cold, dry, thin Texas Panhandle air recognizes him with a whistled greeting. The sun’s rays spread across the bluestem grass revealing hoof marks left by cattle and horses in the prairie sod. The departing sun throws shadows across the prairie before he sees them.

They come from the west, as if spawned by the sinking sun. The two boys ride nearly identical palomino horses, the only color raised on the ranch. Tee recognizes the matching wool blanket coats made by their mother in brilliant colors so that her sons can be seen from a long distance. She has knitted bright orange wool neck scarves to cover their ears under their black hats. The boys stop at the crossing, dismount like grown men, and let their reins drop to the ground. The horses stand patiently as they were trained to do. Each brother places a penny on a rail.

The nine-year-old stands on the crossties and looks down the tracks while his ten-year-old brother puts an ear to one of the rails. The rail pulses and hums a few minutes before the train’s whistle pierces the clear air. The boys remount, lift their hats to the engineer, sit calmly in their saddles as the train passes, wave to the brakeman as the caboose departs, then ride to the middle of the still warm tracks. The oldest holds on to a long saddle string and picks up his flattened penny without dismounting while the younger dismounts to retrieve his. Copper trophies in their pockets, the boys ride west until the sun takes them back.

The dream has come unbidden so many times that Tee can bring it to mind at will. He looks down the street to the parking garage where his car sits on the roof, dreads touching door handles scorched by the sun. He briefly considers driving away, but replaying the dream has calmed him. He pulls his tie snug, puts on his coat, and begins retracing his steps. He remembers to stand straight, willing away the slight stoop from an imaginary weight on his shoulders. The limp is barely noticeable as he walks back to face his new life.

 

 

Reviews

I enjoyed this book immensely. I had the kindle version and it seemed at one point a page had been left out or maybe it was just that I missed it. But the novel was excellent, the characters well developed, and the plot kept me in suspense always seeming to move in a unexpected direction. Even the ending, and I like happy endings, was satisfying — realistic, but not how I would have liked it to end. This author weaves a tale that you keep coming back to.

Galand Fox Nuchols

There are great storytellers and literary storytellers across this land. Jim Ainsworth is both. In Rails to a River, as in his other novels, Jim is a sculptor who carves the right words from our language and strings them together with the beauty of a poet and the sudden impact of a pistol shot.
Just read a brief passage, and you will understand immediately what I am talking about: “But not even Father Bob can explain why Tee was spared, why it seems as if he has been plucked by some malevolent force from a life he understood and loved and set down into a suit and tie existence in, a world college professors called a corporate culture. The old priest could not explain why two events, sixty-seven days apart, five hundred miles apart, shattered Tee’s hopes, rudely maneuvered his life down a road he did not with to travel toward a place he does not want to be.”
Jim Ainsworth understands the storms that threaten to destroy men like Tee Jessup, that leave Tee adrift in a world that views him as a man who doesn’t belong. A single moment of time has changed his life forever. He probably should not have survived the accident at a remote railroad crossing. He probably should not have awakened from the coma. It might have been better if he hadn’t. All that he loved has been stolen from him
He had always been at home in the wide-open spaces of a West Texas ranch. His home is gone. He drives away from the ranch. He heads to the city. He heads to the great unknown. He is a man most miserable, a stranger in a strange place. He works. He fails. His wife leaves him. She takes his son. He assumes it’s because he has become a failure. Her reasons are far more sinister. But what are they?
Tee faces a journey he does not want to take and searches for those stolen moments of his life that he may never find. It is a journey that the reader takes right along step-by-step with Tee Jessup as he travels a long, winding, and unfamiliar road. When Tee is lost, we are lost. When Tee hurts, we feel his pain. Tee Jessup is no longer a stranger. He’s a friend. He’s family. Jim Ainsworth has the rare ability to make sure of it. Jim writes about the West, but Rails to a River is not a Western. Tee is entangled with the mysteries that surround his life, but Rails to a River is not a mystery. Tee searches for the love he has lost — the love of the woman and his love for the land — but Rails to the River is not a romance. It’s life.
If you want to read a literary work of fiction with a great story that has a lot of heart, read Jim Ainsworth. It’s life as only one man has lived it, life as only Jim Ainsworth can write it.

Caleb Pirtle

Rails to a River is my first Jim Ainsworth novel, and it has been a true pleasure. I can’t compare it to any of his others, but I enjoyed the contemporary setting for an age-old sorrow where necessity drags a man away from his dreams. While some might call Tee Jessup shiftless because of his constant moving from one empty job to another, he is actually a man honoring what is true within him but at a cost. The story keeps you riveted because of the unexpected twists of characters and plot, but this masterful writer keeps all the ends tied so the reader doesn’t trip over any of them. I haven’t read many books of late where I couldn’t wait to get back to my Kindle, but this was one. Ainsworth’s passion for his Texas home, its cowboy history and the very land under his feet keeps his descriptions fresh and his story real.

Christina Carson

Jim Ainsworth does it again. He has departed from his family based River’s series into a modern western novel. This one has it all. The protagonist is likable, yet flawed. The complexity of the character is masterfully done. The secondary characters are well developed and active participants in the story, not just props on the stage. The plot is intriguing and moves at a nice pace. I felt as if I knew Tee Jessup like a long time friend. The plot builds steadily progressing to an unforeseen climax. There are twists and turns galore and certainly enough to maintain the interest of the most discriminating reader. This is an excellent, well-written easy to ready and easy to enjoy novel. Highly recommended.

George Aubrey

One of Jim’s finest. Tightly written. I thought his books couldn’t get any better than the Rivers Trilogy or the ones that came later. I hope to read more of Tee Jessup’s life and to fine out what part of the story just might be part of Mr. Ainsworth’s life story. I love the way he intermingles truth with fiction. The book stays with you a long time after you read the last word. Some of this book is spiritual in the way things happen. I was left wondering if certain things could have happened the way it was written. If you aren’t an Ainsworth fan yet, read one book and you will be. This is a good one to start with.

Charlotte Hilliard

Rails to a River is the fifth book that I’ve read by Jim Ainsworth. It was an amazing read! I literally had to put the book down after the first two chapters and just digest what I had read. I think and I read in a very visual way. Jim’s development of characters, descriptions of the scenes, and stitching together of the plot let the book flow through my mind so smoothly it was like watching a movie on the big screen. I truly look forward to getting “a’holt” of another one of Jim’s books.

Ken Ryan

Once again Jim Ainsworth has written a novel worthy of highest acclaim. His characters come to life and leave the reader feeling as if you’ve known them always. From the beginning, I couldn’t put the book down because I was drawn in to the web of intrigue surrounding Tee Jessup. Tee is such a well developed character, very likable, and extremely believable. This is another winner from an amazing author. 

Mary J. Miller

Ainsworth has written an intriguing story which cannot be predicted from one page to the next. The turns and twists are marvelously woven together to make the story live. I loved it. The only reason I did not give it five stars was I thought the protagonist rose to the top of his profession too quickly. Advancement in his chosen field comes more slowly than it was presented. Don’t let that opinion keep you from reading this great story. It is well worth your time.

Richard Hollingsworth